2 month and 2 days from my last post and keeping myself truly accountable for my eating and exercising actions. A lot has happened since my last post.
-My relationship with Steve ended, but I have started seeing Paul again (I was seeing him when I first started this journey, and just the other day he asked "Where is that arm band (bodybugg) you use to wear?" And asked me if I was getting back into working out/eating healthy.)
-I got a job at a chain brewhouse as a host. It is an ok minimum wage job. Pros, I stand and walk the entire time during my shift. Con, I get a free meal with every shift. Money has been tight and so I haven't been passing up the food, but have been making bad choices (they don't have many "good choices", but I could've made better decisions).
-I also got a job as an instructional aide in a classroom for emotionally disturbed students. Pro, I am back in education and in a classroom and there is a 24 hour fitness about 2 blocks away from school. Con, the teacher I am working with is not very good, and it is hard to take a back seat to her teaching when I know I could do a better job.
I am happy that I am being productive and making my own money again, but I am far from being happy in both of the jobs that I have. I am still studying for the General Science CSETs and am constantly looking for opportunities to get my own classroom again. It is nice to have a set schedule again, but some days I work both jobs in a day which can last from 6am-12pm (not typical but 6am-9pm is typical on days I work both jobs). And after doing both jobs there is no way I have energy to go to the gym. But having a set breakfast and lunch time is helpful to keep things on track. Dinner is a different story, because some nights I will get food from the brewery at 9pm scarf it down then go to bed. 9pm is too late to be eating dinner, but I can't eat it at 4pm before work because that would be too early (and I can't eat while on the clock).
I feel like I have had some false "restarts" in the last three months. I will say to myself (or my roommate), "Ok, I am starting Monday back into eating healthy and going to the gym". And I will eat well for the week, but not make it to the gym. But this Monday I AM DOING IT! Yesterday I cleaned out my fridge and pantry, getting rid of expired food/condiments, and made a shopping list for Trader Joe's when I get paid on Tuesday.
I have decided that I want to finish out 2011 the way I started it, eating healthy and going to the gym. I have decided to make an end of 2011 weight loss goal, but haven't thought it all the way through yet. My birthday is also in mid-December and would like to start my 28th year the right way!
I will be trying to blog more, go to the gym more, track my calories more, and make better decisions. I am charging my bodybugg now, have loaded podcasts and music on my iPhone, and am going to look at gym schedules and create my end of 2011 goal right now! STAY TUNED!
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