Good news: Today I went to body pump again today, and it felt good. Even though I was still sore, it felt nice to work out the muscles again.
My Spaghetti Squash Lasagna came out AMAZING! I was so worried that with it being all veggie that it would be really runny, but it wasn't. It was perfect. I figured out that 1/12 of my 9x13 pan had only 266 calories. I think that is a pretty good deal! It was a super yummy dinner, and now I will be having it for the next 11 meals, because cooking for one sucks. :) I also had drinks for my friends birthday tonight and it was just what I needed,... on to the bad news.
Bad news: I had an emotional day today coming to terms that there are really no teaching jobs for me in Sacramento, and that is really sad. I have known I wanted to be a teacher since forever, and it's hard to realize that it might not be what I will end up doing for a living. It's also been really hard financially being on unemployment and I am getting really fed up with always being beyond broke. I know I'm an emotional eater, and even though I realize and own that, I still do it. I did have more dark chocolate pretzels than I had planned today, and also had 2 beers at drinks instead of the club soda I had planned on, but didn't go totally off the handle. Drinking as a stress release is something that I have done for six years. It's a hard habit to break.
I have this feeling that I just need to run away from everything, and that's exactly what I will do on the treadmill tomorrow morning at the gym, and try to refocus my emotions. I also haven't been going to the gym as much as I would like, and it's no one's fault but my own. I have lost my gym mojo, and need to get it back quick.
A family friend, Mary posted this quote on her facebook today, and it's exactly what I needed to hear. Because right now I feel like that little voice.
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow."
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