Totally changing gears. A little while ago my roommate and I had a discussion about changing our thoughts on our body image. She has lost about 40 lbs, and she looks amazing. We were talking about how even though we are both down 40 lbs, we still look in the mirror and see the same thing that we did before we lost the weight. Most of the time I'll still look in the mirror and see no changes in my body. It's because I look at it all day everyday and don't see the changes like someone who hasn't seen you in 5 months. When I see people who haven't seen me in awhile say that I'm looking great. But I only half believe it because I still have a distorted body image of myself. I'm not writing this soliciting positive comments or anything, just sharing my thoughts on working to change how I view myself.
I know my body has changed because I have dropped 2-3 pant sizes and can't fit in any of the clothes that I did at the beginning of the year. I have actually gotten rid of most of the clothes that I had in January. In both of the photo's below I don't have the clothes I'm wearing in the 'fat' photos, so that does mean something. I'm not sure if there will be a turning point in when I will really start to realize that I have really made a difference. I'm fairly certain it will have to do with clothes, feeling comfortable in a bikini, being able to walk into any store and can fit into anything, being able to fit into Victoria Secret Bras, I don't know what it will be, but I would love to be able to really see the change for myself. :)
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| Right: May 2010, Left: June 2011 |
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| Right: December 2010, Left: May 2011 |
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Hey thanks! :) I like your list of music. I'm always looking for new stuff to add to my playlists. Looks like I'll be doing some downloading tonight!
ReplyDeleteI totally understand what you mean about distorted body image. I struggle with that a lot. I will point out people, and say to Marco, "That women is much thinner than I am," and he will look at me like I am insane. It's a struggle and I don't have an answer for it. But I can tell you this: I have known you your entire life and you look healthier and happier than I have ever seen you!! I am so proud of you and YOUR motivation is what gets me out of bed at 530am for yoga! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteArg -- by the way -- that was from Dianna. Don't know why it didn't say so. :-P
ReplyDeleteAt first, I was like, "who is 'me'?" LOL But then I figured it out with the Marco and the Yoga reference. Thanks for your words of inspiration, they help me get to the gym too.
ReplyDeleteI know I have changed, but it's just hard to see it day by day. But hopefully I can work on seeing myself differently. xoxo
Keep it going girly! It's funny that you talk about body image because I will see other women that are similar in size as me, and think wow- they are really pretty and make comments like that. But, when I look at myself, all I see is disgust from the neck down.
ReplyDeleteYou are looking great Hil! I can already tell such a difference in the photos. Keep up the AMAZING work!!
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